Gorgeous Girl Won't Like You Unless

Looking at a photograph of a cute girl, I feel my blood boil in excitement. And at the same time despair because I know deep inside, that I won't even have the chance to date that girl. Unless I excercise? Unless I look good? Unless I have lots of money? Unless I have power?

When A Person Ignores You, Should You Ignore Back?

I think its frustrating that people would ignore you. And not even give you a chance to prove yourself to them. Like the girl I like. She ignores me. It hurts. Its frustrating. Why doesn't she like me? I don't want to dwell in self pity... Self pity is not something an alpha male would do. I want to be stronger. I don't want a woman who'll have an effect on me. I want to have the power to choose which woman I like. And I want to have the emotion to withstand rejection.

Her Name is M.

She was the girl I fell in love with during high school. But because things never happened between the two of us. I tried to talk to her today thru text. When I try to call her, she never answers the phone. She's the shy type of girl, knowing her since high school. I know she might be shy.

I just can't get her to talk at all. She'll reply once then she'll ignore my other texts. The feeling of being ignored frustrates me...

In a book that I read says that I should not be affected if a girl ignores me. Being ignored by a girl means she perceive me as lower value than her. And you don't want to be lower value than a woman. So that means, I should just search for another girl right?

About This Girl & Why Does Woman Lie?

I used to be a ladies man. When I was in elementary - high school. I used to be a popular guy. Good grades, good in sports, good looking. But when I went to college and up to know, I never really had good enough successes with women. Women that I want to have long term relationship with. Mostly are just 1 to 2 dates and we go separate ways.

I'm tired of it all. I'm tired when you want to have a serious relationship with woman, that's the time they will lie to you. Then you will find out, without them knowing. Then it makes me not to trust them anymore.

I guess its a woman's nature to lie lie and lie. Everybody lie. That's what I learned in the tv show house. And he has a point. But the sad thing is, I always expect everyone to tell the truth and get hurt in the process. I think I haven't matured enough in this. I tend to have an idealistic view of human nature that everybody is kind. That there is love. And that everything is fine as long you "be yourself". I've been acting that way for a long time and the results never change. Maybe its time for me to change myself.

That's what this blog is all about. I want to document my thoughts when it comes to relationships and my goal to becoming an alpha male. It would probably be a long journey for a nice guy like me.